I have a friend I so-want to talk to her and tell her to stop! Stop ranting and raving, stop falling for the BS, stop, stop, stop...I even told my boss about this and he asked me, "Do you want to do this for you or for her?" I answered, "For me. Because if I was in this situation I would want someone to reach out and help me." That was yesterday, this is today.
Now I realize...I am my friend. Hmmm...
Early this morning, Elvis woke me up because he needed to go outside and I couldn't go back to sleep so I listened to Salvador talk about Step 3 while I crocheted on one of my shirts. How many times have I listened to this tape, heard the material he speaks about? This time I really heard him loud and clear...am I a good sister, mother, aunt, employee, citizen, neighbor, partner, etc. Not do I "do" good...do I "be"?
Day by Day, "Lord, help me to know that it's not my location that makes the difference in my life---it's what I'm working with inside."
Courage to Change, "we are all as unique as our fingerprints, but as our fingers join in closing prayer, each of us is part of a circle of hope that is greater than any of our individual differences..."For the body is one and has many members, but all the members of that one body, being many, are one body."-the Bible
One Day at a Time in Al-Anon, "Let me weigh my misdeeds on an honest scale and make restitution as well as I can. But let not the scale be unbalanced by the weight of what others have done."
Discovering Choices, p.118-120, "I used to think I had a sticker on my forehead that read, "Let me fix you."...learned a great deal about the diease of alcoholism and how it can destroy the grace and decencies of life...learned that people who have been affected by someone else's drinking are sometimes sicker than the drinker. I tried to fix my loved ones by arguing, threatening, jumping on moving vehicles, hiding keys, staging crime scenes, and anything else I could think of to convince them to stop drinking...learned I had a controlling nature and that my illogical belief that I could fix everything could also destroy a relationship---even when no drinking was involved...learned that drinkers don't drink because of me; they drink because they're alcoholics. Nothing I could say or do could cause them to drink or to stop drinking...learned that the only control I had was over me and my reactions...learned not to start a crisis on purpose to be able to have my own way, and how to stay peaceful in the middle of heated discussions...learned that there is more than one right way to do things and that my other half may be right too."
Dear Lord Almighty Creator, thank YOU for the wonder and beauty of it all. Thank YOU for each breath we take on this earth plane. Thank YOU for loving us all so much and caring for us. We need YOU, Lord, every step of the way. May we be of service to YOUR Will. Love, Carol xoxox
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