So now I'm beginning to look around for a different job because the targeted shelter population will be changing and the truth is, I'm changing. While aging, I see more and more limitations presenting. Externally, of course, but internally even more. I no longer want to be the "stand-in" if someone gets sick and can't make it in, or be the one who has to make sure this or that gets attention, or on and on. The fluidity of working at the shelter is necessary to keep it stable. The human dynamics require flexability, flux, and a bit of structure but not too much, etc.
Truth is, I've loved working there. It almost feels like an artform instead of just a job. The beauty of interacting on a daily basis with humanity on a soulful level is very humbling. The problem is the salary, opportunity for career advancement and skills development are pretty limited.
Another truth is, GOD-willing and the creek don't rise, I'm hoping I have another good 10 years of workability and it's important to increase the salary to further prepare for retirement. I turn this over to my Higher Power.
I plan to inform my boss today of these intentions and will begin submitting applications to possibilities that present. Start making the moves...GOD-willing, in the process of job searching.
Courage to Change, "Today, instead of aiming only for the results, I will consider taking actions because they seem to be the right actions for me."
Hope for Today, "How could anyone possibly like or love me? I certainly didn't...At first all I saw were my defects...encouraged me to seek out my assets as well...that I embrace my defects and my assets and celebrate them all as part of who I am...let my Hgher Power decide which ones I needed to keep...you can't love someone until you first care about yourself."
ODAT, "...learned the importance of Humility in coping with life's problems...the most important thing...was the way we help each other through love and mutual concern for each other's problems...the most important way to get that help was to listen to what is said, and not how it is said..."There are, it may be, so many kinds of voices in the world, and none of them is without significance."---1st Corinthians 14:10...would find answers from uncritical listening..."
Day by Day, "We deserve beautiful things and need not continue disparaging and punishing ourselves for our past behavior...They have a right to the joy of giving and we have a right to the joy of receiving. We also have a right to the joy of giving so others may receive. We can give material things...moral support...a friendly ear...best of all, we can give love....Have I learned to give?"
Dear Sweet Merciful Lord GOD Creator of it ALL, thank YOU for this day YOU give us freely. Thank YOU for the gifts of the Spirit, the fruits of YOUR labor of Love. How truly awesomely mighty YOU are. Lord, show the way YOU want me to go. Shine YOUR Light on the path. Only YOU truly know what it is YOU want from me. I surrender all, Lord. As YOU Will. Love, Carol xoxox
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