Whew and the 5 G's

Well, I felt so happy, proud of myself for troubleshooting the computer and keyboard problem only to find the same problem crop up again...grrr.  The same beep sounded and Windows didn't come on.  Jeesh.  Just when I thought everything was fine.  What came up for me at the failure of the system to work was I didn't know what the problem could be.  I'd bought a new wireless Logitec keyboard and mouse.  It all worked.  Now suddenly again, same problem....was it the motherboard going out????  Emotionally and mentally I felt blocked.  Angry, disappointed, sad, frustrated, powerless, annoyed, aggravated, irritable, etc.  I put all that negative self-talk on hold and went to do other things. I walked away from the situation until I felt neutral, curious and available with plenty of time to explore the problem and find a solution.  Apparently the new keyboard has an "on/off" button and it had been toggled "off".  Jeesh.  Who knew?????  Anyway, problem solved and I'm back on-line.  Yeah!

What fascinates me is how quick I am to ruthlessly attack myself and others in my mind!  Wow!  I read today in one of the meditation books where it says something like, "I asked GOD to give me grace for some space between impulse and action."  Yep.  It's like that.  Sometimes I need a-l-o-t of space, as much as I can get.  Hilarious.

Yesterday I asked a person if she'd ever been to Alanon and she said, "Yes.  I went for about 2 1/2 years and the only thing I remember is the 5 Gs."....Wow.  Really.  I've never heard of the 5 Gs.  She wrote them down for me:

1.  Get out of their way
2.  Get off their back
3.  Get to a meeting
4.  Get a sponsor
5.  Get a life

Kewl.  Also, I told her about this blog and she pointed-out anonymity can be compromised by having my picture on here so I've removed it to honor this Tradition.  It's all good. 

Also, today is my first day in applying the Steps AGAIN to my health, body, food, etc.  Yeah!  I've had many Firsts...GOD be with me and also with you.  :)

Dear Higher Power, thank YOU for the multiple blessings YOU shower upon us all.  Please help me remember the 5 Gs and to thank YOU for the grace to open the space between my impulses and actions.  All glory to YOU...love, Carol xoxox