Face it

I upgraded to Google Chrome and now the "compose" works!  Yeah!  I am soooo excited.  :)

Well, I continue to work the Steps with my new Al-Anon sponsor.  It's different than when I worked them in AA or worked them alone.  I snagged on the 4.  So many things showed up.  That old boyfriend for one.  Wow.  This brought a bunch of stuff smack up into my face.  The truth is I've been a lot sicker, deeper in denial,  than what I was ever willing to "face".  This smashed a bunch of denial.  The truth is I used him just like I've used other people as excuses for how I've lived my life.  Again and again confronted by it.

I worked some more on the 4 and am racing along.  This morning I wrote my grandson a letter, also my brother in Phoenix, and also a "thank you" letter to my dermatologist.  Actually I feel happy and successful.  Just for today...

Courage to Change, p.232, "Today I make a commitment to be honest with myself.  By facing reality, I become someone I can depend on."  A quote from As We Understood, "Awareness is so much better for me than closing out all feelings, shutting out people, withdrawing from living.  No matter how hard the truth is or what the facts are, I prefer to know, look at, and accept this day."

Dear Sweet Lord GOD Almighty Creator, than YOU.  Love, Carol xoxox