Free My Mind

I don't know.  Sometimes I experience my thoughts like getting stuck on a fly-trap, those sticky glue paper strips.  Negative thoughts and reactive emotions whir, buzz, gnash at my peace of mind until there is none.  Stuck.

Before the 12 Steps, I just guessed, trial and error, in finding ways to stop the obsession, fixation, compulsion or whatever you want to call it.  Resentment, hate, anger, fear, despair, etc. ruled the day and just h-u-r-t.

There is a way out...thank GOD.  And it does get better.  This, too, shall pass, indeed.

One Day at a Time in Alanon, p.235, "If I really do not want to be hurt, and if I am sure that self-pity isn't giving me a certain secret satisfaction, I will take all the steps necessary to free my mind from painful thoughts and emotions.  The best way to do this is not by grimly exerting will power, but by replacing those hurtful ideas with thoughts of love and gratitude."

Dear Creator GOD Lord Almighty, thank YOU for YOUR wondrous gifts of life.  The abundance of YOUR glory, compassion and love for us all is so amazing.  Thank YOU for helping me remember that just because I make mistakes doesn't mean I am a mistake.  I am YOUR creation and thank YOU for the opportunity to be of service to YOU and my spiritual brothers and sisters.  Love, Carol xoxox