The Martyr-face

I had a mask that is for Mardi Gra.  I gave it away yesterday.  It reminds me of how there are many times I wear an expression on my face that reflects the role I'm playing in my interactions in life.  Instead of how I really feel, or what I really think.  The authentic self is covered by the false self, the fake, the mask of people-pleasing, dominating, controlling, manipulating, mothering, smothering not only others but myself, too.  Jeesh.

What does it take to stop wearing masks and just be real?  Love and tolerance.  For myself and others.  Enjoying life, squeezing each moment for each precious happy, joyous and free minute!  Wearing a smile of gratitude instead of a sad, droopy face full of self-pity.  Keep the focus on me and let it begin with me.  Stop waiting for others to change...get busy in changing my own attitude and focus.

One Day at a Time in Alanon, p.236, "Everyone around  this table is smiling---we've all put aside our griefs and our grievances.  Do we behave this cheerful way at home, or do we automatically put on our martyr-face?  I know I do---and right now I'm going to begin to change that."

Dear Lord Great Spirit, powerful and knowing are YOUR Ways.  Please lead me in the path of YOUR love, tolerance, and merciful forgiveness.  As YOU Will.  Love, Carol xoxox