Well, I had a hard time going to sleep and finally about 2 am I decided to get up out of bed. I remembered "The Four Agreements" book was on-line so I went to the Internet. What I l-o-v-e about Amazon.com is it's open 24/7! I bought then downloaded the book onto my Kindle.
Wow. I also l-o-v-e my Kindle because it has text-to-speech capability. I can choose whether a male or female voice reads the book aloud. Love it!
So, while the Kindle's female voice read the book to me, I worked on beading a blouse I like. I felt relaxed and peaceful. When I did fall asleep it was about 4 am but I had a deep and restful sleep. I relaxed.
How I worked my Steps in this situation, the 1-2-3 contained in the Serenity Prayer: I kept trying to force myself to go to sleep but it didn't work. I felt powerless. Seemed the more I pushed on me, the worse it got. I admitted I was powerless over the insomnia and my life was unmanageable. I realized I'm not the Higher Power because if I was, why couldn't I make me go to sleep when I wanted it so much? As soon as I "came to", awakened to the Great Reality there is a Higher Power and it ain't me, things changed. I remembered it's supposed to be good to get out of bed when having trouble sleeping. I remembered to keep an open mind and the willingness to accept suggestions given by trusted sources. I remembered "The Four Agreements" book my friend had recommended I read. I remembered the Kindle, the blouse, etc. I LET GO AND LET GOD and it all came together without me trying to force a solution. Whew! Thank GOD.
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I hadn't realized how the steps would help with insomnia until last week when it struck. I stayed cool, also, enjoyed a book I just got from the library. I talked to my dogs. Good practice in letting go since I normally begin an inner dialogue of "I need to sleep" answered by "I can't sleep." And, again I feel very alone at these moments, so your postings remind me of my humanity. Oh yeah, I'm human.
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