The Pea Shell Game of Addiction

In AA the saying is "Put the plug in the jug" which addresses the physical phenomena of craving which can be triggered by alcohol for those of us who are allergic to it and we use the 12 STEPS to treat the mental obsession which can lead to the first drink.  This is tricky business because sometimes the craving can be satisfied with one drink, one time but inevitably, eventually, no matter what, it leads to another and another for those of us who are alcoholics.  The vicious cycle of "Once I started I didn't know when I was going to stop and once I stopped I didn't know when I was going to start" where  "One drink is too many and 100 aren't enough".  This applies to all the other addictions, too.  Different objects of obsession and compulsions with the same underlying issues.  Sneaky, sneaky.

What fascinates me about addiction is how when I stopped drinking I started noticing all this "thinking".  I had been doing this "thinking" all along but I'd been drowning my sorrow or better yet, drowning out the chitter-chatter of my thoughts.  All this thinking seemed to center around me, me, me.  Fear based, egocentric, self-centered, self-willed me, me, me.  A whirling mass of willful immaturity stuck in a limbo, frozen in time and space of a traumatic childhood.

So I started smoking even more.  Then I quit smoking.  Then I started eating more.  Jeesh.  "Changing compulsions is like changing seats on the Titanic".

Without the addictions clouding my vision I am able to see the real problem lies in my thinking, just like Klaus talked about.  The way I relate to GOD, me and you.  The STEPS help me get back in the solution...the matrix shift where "I" am not the center of the Universe.  GOD is.  GOD is love.  The highest vibration which transcends all.  I see...just for today I see.

I went to Amazon.com last night and bought "The Fifth Agreement".  I also saw Don Miguel has another book, "Prayers" to be explored perhaps one day.