All On GOD's Time

Another one of Alanon Mary #1's favorite saying's is, "It's all on GOD's time." I really appreciate hearing this because it stops a lot of the swirling negative, critical chitter-chatter in my head.  Not just about me.  It can also be about people, places and things.  The ruthless, harsh, controlling and domineering thoughts sometimes seem to take a life of their own and become ingrained, hard to shake off.  Then I feel driven, compulsive, fixating on whatever.  Whether it's "I want candy", "I want a drink", "I need a cigarette", "I want the last word", or "Take that, you so and so", on and on.  There used to be a hilarious commercial jingle, "Sometimes I feel like a nut...sometimes I don't.  Almond Joy has nuts, Mounds don't."  It's like that.  LOL

"Why didn't I know this sooner?  Why did I have to go through so much to get here?  Why did it take so long?  Why didn't I wake up sooner?  Why is she like that?  When is he ever going to change?  She should know better by now.  He should do better by now.  I should feel better by now.  Why don't I?  Why don't we all do better by now?"  And any other judgmental, critical, cynical thought I can throw in the mix.  I can waste a lot of time shoulding all over myself.  If I really want to know why...it's because all these things are happening on GOD's time, not mine.  Like a tight rosebud slowing unfurling its tender petals then blossoming to its fullness and glory, so it is with us all.  I remember watching time-lapse documentaries that showed flowers growing from seeds, sprouting then shooting up into full height and magnificence.  Awesome.  Yep.  It's like that.

Yesterday Beau and Bonny visited me.  Beau worked on the desktop while Bonny helped by going to pickup a computer box because mine was too small for the motherboard, etc.  Then she drove me over to Randall's to pickup and deliver the cakes to the club.  They asked about the little bird who fell in the spring.  It was Beau who helped save the little bird when he used a tall ladder to put it back in its nest.  I told them that little bird lived and I showed them my blog.  Bonny encouraged me to put it on Facebook.  OK.  I'll see about doing this hopefully today.

Well, AA Linda just called to check on me and said Birthday Night was wonderful with no glitches.  That's good to hear.  I loved listening to her voice.

Once more I feel deeply humble and grateful to have such beautiful, caring, supportive people in my life.  They are my gold, silver and pearls.  These are the treasures that no thief can steal, nor do they rust, fade, or rot away.  Love is the gift that keeps on giving long after everything else has gone away.  The highest vibration that transcends it all.  The juice of the Universe.  Yes, yes.  I know.  I'm so corny at times.  Jeesh.  GOD bless and keep us all in this space and time of our lives.  Love, C.