Letting Go with Claw Marks

In my mind, I want to think I am so this and that.  In reality, I'm not.  I'm weak especially when it comes to certain behaviors and certain Life conditions.  When I heard about this verse from the Bible I embraced it because this helped me know I'm not alone.  It is a part of my human condition.   We all share it.

"The spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak."

In my recovery tool chest are an assortment of  instruments I collect to help me on Life's journey.  When one doesn't quite do the job, I pull out another.  Quotes, biblical verses, slogans, etc. are well-represented.  But the high-powered tools are the Steps. 

The difference is like using an electric mixer to combine the ingredients to bake a 300 lb. cake or to use a spoon.  To use a vacuum cleaner to clean the carpet of a 2 level building or use a broom to sweep the carpet.  To use a boat with a motor or use a raft with a pole to get from one side of a river to another.  Etc.  They will all do the job but the difference in power is immediately noticeable.  

The efficiency, efficacy, and rapid payoff are great motivators to use the Steps.  But before I can use them I need to make a choice.  A decision to pick up and plug them in.  Otherwise, they are just some tools in the chest.     

Step 3:  Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of our Higher Power.  

I can't.....Step 1.  I got a problem that no matter what solutions I think, do and believe to use, the problem doesn't stay stopped being a problem because the problem is "me" in trying to stay in the navigator seat when all indicators are code red that I'm bumping into every body and everything because I can only see what I think I see.

GOD can...Step 2.  There is a solution and it isn't "me".  The solution is a Power Greater than "me" can navigate my life because it can see everything for what it truly is and exactly where we all are on the road of Life.

I think I'll let GOD...Step 3.  I decide to choose to get "me" out of the navigator seat and turn it all over to the Master Navigator.  I trust it'll all work out just the way it's supposed to and I pray for guidance to do the next right thing.

Let Go and Let GOD                              Live and Let Live

The claw marks are when I forget and start thinking, "Hmmmm...if only....what if..." and I'm back in the insanity of trying to run the show, call the shots, figure everybody out, get back in the navigator seat as if I am the solution to mine and everybody else's problems...Step 1...