Denial or In Reality

This morning, while flipping the pages of my diary to a blank page to journal on, I saw a line that really stood out. It said, "I feared everything but used my denial to fear nothing." Denial was a tool I used and it served a purpose all along. It was a survival mechanism that did exactly what it's designed to do...help me survive.  The thing is I took it to another level. It became my main tool.   It became my way of being in relationships with GOD, myself, others, love, time, food, money, ambition, the world, etc.  You name it.

In today's readings the word "surrender" and "acceptance" showed up many times. The process of recovery has been, for me, letting go of "denial" and learning to use different tools to live Life on Life's terms.  In reality.

Reality, for me today, is acceptance of the truth and the truth is GOD has EVERYTHING covered and all I absolutely must do is surrender my will unto GOD.  Then ask for guidance and support that I do the next right thing...according to GOD's Will.

Dear Lord GOD Almighty Highest Power, please help me remember YOUR Will comes first, above all,
no matter what.  As YOU Will.  Love, Carol xoxox