Head-on or Head-down

Wow.  I absolutely l-o-v-e the readings in the morning!  It's such an adventure because I never know what will be revealed, what I'm going to read from one book to the next.  It's quite an adventure on the path of recovery because the material is all about this spiritual process.  All about connecting to the Higher Power, my true self, and others' true selves.  Mahhh-velous, simply marvelous.  LOL

In As We Understood, p.171, it was about living life in fear where change was terrifying until "Through this program and the people in it, God has healed me with His pure, unchangeable love so that I am able to adjust to ever-changing relationships   With this flexibility fear takes a minor role, and faith and trust are now a major part of my life."  "Life can either be a burden and a chore or a challenge and a joy.  One Day at a Time I can meet the challenges of life head-on instead of headdown."


The "...In All Our Affairs", p.101, titled "Setting Limits" reading was particularly powerful today because it was about an Alanon who no longer wanted to be enmeshed in the family pathology, who wanted to stop repeating old family patterns of attitudes and behaviors.  "...I finally focused on myself and stopped fighting my mother's battles...".   "Although my choice saved me from another spoiled holiday, I felt a great sense of loss because of my mother's inability to come to my aid.  It was a pattern I remembered well from childhood." I can so relate.  "I miss the old feeling of closeness with my mother, although I realize it was based on a lack of boundaries."

As I'm working another 4th Step inventory, this time in 7 year increments, it almost feels like I've never done it before.  It's almost as if using a fine-toothed comb, the detail is so present.  Remembering to also write down happy, positive stuff helps a great deal.

Dear Sweet Lord GOD Almighty, YOUR mighty works are a tribute to YOUR presence,Your POWER, and YOUR Grace.  As our times accelerate and propel us all into unknown, uncharted territories please help guide us to do YOUR Will.  May we be pleasing in YOUR Eyes, Mind and YOUR Heart, Lord.  Thank YOU for all the blessings YOU bestow.  Love, Carol xoxox